I have walked through the lion’s den.
I have felt the hot breath of satan on the back of my neck.
I have heard wicked whispers of deceit echo in my ears.
The lies sounded sweet as honey but led me only to death.
I have been lost in the wilderness.
I have forsaken my compass to be led by foolish thoughts and deeds.
I have stomped on my hopes and dreams.
I have had visions of failure repeatedly play like a movie reel in my mind.
The dignity and peace I once felt, laid in crumbles beneath my feet.
I have tasted the hopelessness on my lips with the salty defeat of my tears.
I have allowed the bitterness of hate to pierce my mouth shut when I should have cried out Your name instead.
“Jesus! Save me, Lord!”
I have tried so hard to give up on myself.
I have shoveled words of destruction upon my back until I could no longer reach my hands out of the pit that I had created.
I have been in battles for my life and the lives of the people I love.
I have been the No. 1 cheerleader in my life when no other person could lift me up.
I have prayed unceasingly sending out power to make walls collapse.
This daily fight between Good and Evil seems to never end.
But it is worth it to me.
I am worth it.
The people I love are worth it.
I could live to satisfy myself, but my goal is to please my Father in Heaven.
I could stop fighting and be passive, but I want to extend the Kingdom of Heaven.
With every prayer.
With every spiritual battle.
With every tear, I cry.
The will to live this Christ-centered life grows stronger and stronger.
I won’t allow my struggles to go to waste.
I know that with honor comes shame and with victory comes defeat.
The battle to be on the winning side of honor and victory is worth it to me.
I have experienced the enemy, but he has no hold on me.
Now I feel the rushing waves of Christ’s blood bring me to triumph.
Now I move in ways I never thought my paralyzed soul could move.
Now I find freedom from fear that once held me hostage.
Now I can breathe again as I take another step in the right direction.
You, God, are worth it to me because I was worth it to You.
You have given Your life for me.
You, God, are worthy.
